You are about to witness...

To all my blog's readers... 

Remember Today of my life..

I am about to loss my job, my love, part of my strength and soul

Why? What happen...?

Started from my OLD Crazy PsyCho Boss...

He has been such an annoying and irritating OLD MAN to me since the first day I work in this company... 

In his eyes... I am a pathetic desperate widow who need his money.

I might seems easy to approached.... but in this case, I am the most heartless woman he ever met.

Yea.. Pity him, how he tried so hard to win my heart.

How to give if I don't even have it with me??

Somebody took it and never return it back!

Nothing I can do.... Even he return it, it wont be in a piece. 

Who want a broken one??? 

Silly old man..... 

He cut off my pay.. Boycotted me.. inciting my mom, got me kicked out from the house.. no transport for me --> hoping that I will beg him for MERCY?? 

huh... wake up laaa OLD MAN, it's 21st century!!!

No women will plead you!! 

Especially ME!!

Do what ever you want to.. Pleased yourself. 

Get the #$%@ out of my life laaa....

Unbelievable... I got myself in kind of mess!!!

Arrrghhhhh........ 

Believe it or not... this is the true story of the year.

But I'm fine....

 Now you watching me lying on the ground..

But not for long...

Open your eyes wide.. don't even blink a second

you might missed a move..

I will grow stronger.... 

And shoot you straight on your brainless head...

Layde_N : My darl wish me LUCK when i told him i move to a new place.... as if he know. No, he know nothing... Just a JACKPOT wish. :p

Sesi Berdialog dengan ???

Almost 4PM

jap lagi nak balik.....

yeay.. Packing barang dulu...

Kat SANE

now almost 8AM

hmmm... 

dah bangun ker blom ek?

Nak call tp...

malas ahh.. hari2 suara saya jer..

Boring la Mr. K!

Nak text die...

tttcchhh.. 

Buat sakit hati jer.. tak penah nak reply.

Baik aku text dengan baby Min..

??? 

Sibuk jer menyemak otak pikir pasal die..

Die buat ngok jer..

Busy sampai masa tdo pun tak cukup..

mana nak sempat berpikir benda remeh? 

Tau tak pe.. 

ape la... 

Teringat kat Mr. Kojex plak

Apa Khabar die ek?

Lama dah tak dengar berita...

errr.. memang tak minat dengar berita pun..

uhuk uhuk.. bukan....

cerita member2 chat..

hhhmmm... busy sejak produk endurance dah masuk news.

huhuhu...

he's waiting for the second baby...

ker dah kuar?

Rindu dengan baby Min...

rasa nak balik cepat..

Tiba2 lak rasa sedih..

naper ni??

Kesian baby MIN...

Laydee_N :

Uhuhukkkk.... baru buka nuff!!!!!!!!!

ADA dah BUFFERED EARNING!!!!!!

tapi tak byk...satu jer.. uhuk..uhuk..

Thx you all.. mmmmuuuaaahhh..muuuuaaahhh...

Balik dulu.. 

Malam g jenguk blog korang lg k?

What's In My head??

Colbie Caillat

Fallin' FOR you..

I don't know, but I think

I may be fallin' for you

Droppin' so quickly,

maybe I should keep this to myself

Wait until I know you better

I am tryin' not to tell you,

but I want to

I'm scared of what you'll say

So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'

But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my 

I've been spendin' all my time

just thinkin' 'bout you

I don't know what to do,

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waitin' all my life,

and now I found you

I don't know what to do,

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

What is this? hehehe..

Ni la lagu yang 1st bermain di telinga ku untuk hari ni.. Pernah tak bangun pagi, celik mata terus rasa mcm dengar lagu? bukan dari radio or handphone or what so ever.. it's in your head. Sometime, lagu tu kita dengar dari tv, radio or apa2 yg bleh blagu.. then lagu tu melekat dalam otak spanjang hari. Mesti pernah kan?? That mean you are NORMAL.. ahahha.. 

What ever the song is.. it's a song that express your feeling... 

Maksudnya..

Kalau anda berasa sedih..

Sedih la lagu tu.

Kalau happy..

Happy la lagu tu..

and so on.. so on.

Tapi kekadang lagu yang mempengaruhi emosi harian kita. Tak mustahil. Uiisshh bla plak Laydee_N jadi Pakar Motivasi nih?? ahahha.. tu petikan dari artikel laa... saya kan rajin membaca, except for baca yang berunsurkan BERITA! Naper ek saya tak suke dengar, tengok & baca BERITA? hmm.. apa laa dosa BERITA tu pada kehidupan lepas saya? 

Ok thats all for now.. nak g BLOGWALKING lg nih.. 

Boring dok UMAH.. nak bergelak ketawa jap.. 

c ya later.. 

Happy or Sad Valentine???!!

HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL!!!! Though I'm single now.... But I still got my daughter to cheer up my days! Heee... She's so adorable. When ever I feel wanna cry, her sweet little cute notty face can wash away all those pain. Amazing.. how a little girl can do it so well. Ermm... talking bout AMAZING, it's all God's will. Anyway, I'm happy.. happy with my daughter, my life and my "DREAMS". Heee..

Yesterday, I watched this Hindustan movie that make me cried for almost 3 hours! --> UMROU JAAN<-- Aishwariya Rai as Amiran / Umrou Jaan. This movie is about a little girl named Amiran, she's abducted and sold to brothel. Since then she's called Umrou Jaan. 

Then, she grow up as a dancer. Met a Sultan.. Young and handsome one. Heee.. They falling in love but cos of her "TITLE"... Everything fall apart. 

Then, she went back to her home town where she's born. Sad.. Cos she didn't get the chance to met her father. He died after he heard about Amiran (Umrou). But she manage to meet her mother and her brother. Once again.. She thought that she can END the dark side of her, none of her hopes goes her way. Her only family insulted her as she's a very "famous" prostitute. Well, they never know the true story. Anyway, they seem refuse to know the truth. Truth hurts!! She was only a little girl when she got abducted! She didn't simply slept with any guys. The only guy she ever slept with is Sultan Nawab the love of her life.. and she had been raped several time. Cruel isn't it?? Everybody cursing her because of her "TITLE"... Yet she still can move on with her life and her "TITLE" remain forever. 

This story telling us how important for us to prepare a defence wall for ourself. Sometime, we can't just rely on others (even our love one), some of them only can defend half way... maybe 1 in the million can stand till end. Just let people say what they wanna say, God know everything. Humans don't deserve to do the punishment. 

We all just the same, looking for something or somebody who can bring us happiness. But in the same time, try to make yourself happy. Life's not that cruel.. We created our own life, we ourself made all the decisions so nothing to hesitate and don't blame life. Try to make believe that there's always a good thing will happen. My darl told me so. Be happy always.. that's the only way you can find the ray of life. 

Jasa Mu Dikenang..

Selalukan dengar ayat ni? ~JASA MU DIKENANG~ Berapa ramai yang betul2 akan mengenang jasa tu? Berapa lama? Susah nak jawabkan? Dah sifat semulajadi manusia--> PELUPA, LALAI.. 

Kekadang, hanya kerana satu kesalahan kecil pun dah boleh jadi penyebab kita berselisih faham pastu bermusuh. Segala apa yang telah kita perjuangkan, korbankan untuk mempertahankan hubungan kita.. Semua tu dah takde makne nye lagi *Bak kata saiful apek!* Time tu, tak yah ungkit lagi laa pasal pengorbanan or kesabaran yang dah lepas. Dah takde yang ingat dan nampak ape yang baik kita dah buat. 

Masa tu, yang kuar dari bibir "aku dah lama bersabar" / "aku dah cukup bersabar" / "aku dah tak leh tahan" / "aku dah banyak sangat bersabar".... then last "skang aku takleh nak sabar2 dah" / "sabar aku dah terlebih batas"... huh~ apa2 yang berkaitan dgn perkataan sabar semua kuar. Betol ker sabar ni berbatas? Hmm... Rata-rata cakap "SABAR ADA BATASAN". Susah laa... Mana2 batas kesabaran yg sekangkang kera jer tu, tak yah la dirapat2. 

Kekadang rasa pelik lak kenapa sabar harus dibataskan? Huurrrmmm... Baik tak yah bersabar, memang dah tau kesabaran tu takkan berpanjangan. Ending nya tetap sama. Buat ape nak buang masa bersabar2? Pastu.. bila dah gaduh, berungkit lak pasal kesabaran masing2. Boleh ker masalah selesai dengan cara ungkit-mengungkit ni? 

Satu lagi penyakit parah kalau dah gaduh, "TAK NAK MENGALAH"! Uiisshhh.. ni boleh riuh sekampung--> ni kalau zaman dulu. Zaman sekarang--> Riuh satu facebook! Boleh lak masuk dalam facebook pun nak heret semua sekali join venture. Dengan kawan yang pelbagai ragam, ada yang cuba nak tolong, ada lak yang cuba menenangkan keadaan and tak ketinggalan juga yang nak mengapi-apikan yang dah memang "RENTUNG"! hhmm... Kene lak pasangan yang bergaduh ni tak pandai nak kawal emosi. Aduuuhhh.. Parah! Kalah budak2 gaduh.. dia orang ni lagi hebat. Ada akal fikiran, umur pun dah boleh dikatakan "mak bapak org"! Naper la nak kecoh2.. malu la! Then, kalau dah sorang buat salah... harus ker yang sorang lagi balas dengan cara yang sama? Tak ker sama jer jadi nya? Dua2 bersalah. Bila ditanya, sorang tunjuk sorang. Hahahaah.. macam tengok budak kecik gaduh kan? Haizz... Baik undur diri, nasihat pun tak diguna pakai. Otak ada pun, kalau tgh panaas.. yang kuar pun api jer. Memang takkan jumpa jalan penyelesaian.

So dipendekkan cerita "JASA MU DIKENANG" ni.. boleh dikatakan sesuatu yang susah nak diwujudkan. Time bercinta memang laa.. pahit g mana pun ku telan juga. Dah putus?! yang manis pun dikatakan racun. 

Apa2 pun, kita sebagai manusia biasa.... semua pernah buat salah. Belajar la mengaku kesalahan dan perbaiki la diri untuk hari esok yang masih ada! Perkara yang dah terjadi tu, biar la lepas. Takde apa yang boleh kita buat untuk mengubahnya. *Mana pernah dengar sejarah boleh diubah2?* Even dalam cerita "Time Machine" pun dah membuktikan--> "one never can changed the pass"! Jangan lak ade yang terpengaruh dgn cerita "Back 2 The Future" tu dongeng bermata2!! Berusaha la untuk masa depan.. kita pun bukan nya jalan undur ke belakang... K sekian, Terima Kasih!

What's in My Mind...

This is the story of a girl 

Who cried a river and drowned the whole world 

And while she looks so sad in photographs 

I absolutely love her 

When she smiles

by-->3 Doors Down - This Is The Story Of A Girl