Sengal d pagi hari!!!

5.57am - terbangun. Terasa macam biji mata sebelah kiri terkehel dari paksinya. Mesti korang tak faham. Takper.. Cuba korang julingkan sebelah mata jer. Haaaa.. Macam tu lah penglihatan saye pagi tadi. Nebes gakk kejap, dah gosok2 pun masih gak kabur sebelah mata. Check fon.. Kabur!! Daahh ahh..

6.30am - dah siap bubur ayam, nescafe, kemas dapur, n mandi. Macam best kan? Macam bionic women la plak.. Hahahah.. Tapi kalau korang tengok, memang macam katun. Ntah ape ntah.. Macam lerr saye nak gi opis!
8.00am - siap laundry!!! Dengan cadar tilam, comforter smua masuk mesin basuh. Fuuuhh.. Mesin yang basuh, tapi saye plak yang penat. Tengah2 jemur kain, haiiiyaaaaaa.. Mendung!!! Macam nak hujan. Grrrrrr... Wuo tuk keyh??** (macam mana nih?) kuar bahasa korea! Cadar takper laaa, tapi ini comforter leyh? Manyak susah.. (x_x)
8.30am - sarapan.. Sarapan.. Lapar!!! Ting tong.. Bunyi fon!

Sa'aaaaaal betol laaaa orang mesej awal pagi... Kamon laa weiii.. Kalau saye nih keje, blom panas kerusi dah blambak mesej whatsapp.. Niihh, blom sesuap makann pun masuk mulut, bebudak nih dah mesej. Tak bleh ker nak bagi saye hidup aman sikit. Sikit jerr, pagi hari jer!!!!
Laydee_N : Patut laaa sengal semacam jer rasa pagi ni. Tak pnah2 bangun awal pagi masak bubur.. Pastu cuci cadar siap dengan comforter skali.. Then breakfast bubur + nescafe... Pelik sungguh gabungan menu hari ini.
Ini semua..... Kamu, kamu dan kamu punya pasal!!

Raya 2012

No idea... Just latest pics of us. Hehehe..
Selamat hari raya aidilfitri. Maaf zahir batin!! Lama tak jenguk u all. Jap lagi sy g braye k?
Kwing.. Kwing..

oooohhhhh tidakkkkkk!!!!

Jumaat dahh???!!!! Dah malam pon, tinggal esok jer lg!!! Kuih raya sendiri tak buat lagi nih. Asyik buat kuih yang ditempah orang!!!! Alhamdulillah gak la.. Murah rezeki tahun ni. Tapiiiiiii.. Parai die!! Baju raya, kuih muih, semua takder. Rumah?????! Segan laa nak hambek gambar. Memang sah Ramadhan ler saye nih g check in hotel raye nanti. Huhuhuhu...
Tempahan memang tak yah cakap ler tahun nih.. Raye nanti pun kene buat gak. Waktu solat pun dah tunggang langgang skang nih. Terawih... Hancus!!!!!
Makcik saye siap ubah lagu raya.. Siot jer. Hahahahha..
Dalam kelam kabut buat itu ini, terselit rasa sedih bila melihat anak-anak orang lain gembira bersama ibu bapa. Saye tak sedih mengenang nasib saye, dah biase daa. Cuma min.. Mungkin sekarang die tak terasa lagi. Sigh~~ tak sanggup saye nak bdepan dengan situasi tu nanti. Bila difikir-fikir, saye rasa macam saye ni watak dalam kisah novel yang sedih takde penghujung. Kisah cinta saye, kira dah tutup buku. Saye dah jumpe penutupnya. Biarlah die selamanya di hati.. Jiwang sial!! Hahahahhah.. Jodoh pertemuan d tangan Allah swt. Apa-apa pun, buat bodoh jer laa masa nih. Memang xder masa pon nak sibuk hal-hal macam nih. Bunyi macam senang jer nak kawen kan??? Takder nyerrr, kalau tak kuat iman.. Tak cukup ilmu d dada.. Takkan ke mana.
Saye hilang keyakinan?? Mungkin.. Ntah laa. Berita yang baru saye terima beberapa hari lepas, buat saye tiba2 hilang arah. Dah tak tau siapa yang patut dipercaya! Terasa macam ditanam hidup2!! Sesak nafas tiap kali teringatkan cerita tu.
Takper.. Saye yakin Allah swt akan beri balasan setimpalnya. Hanya Allah swt saja yang tau, betapa saya ingin berubah dan cuba menjadi isterinya yang baik.
Wahai para2 suami yang berpoligami di luar sana, saye berharap kamu semua berlaku adil terhadap semua isteri kami. Selami dan fahami perasaan mereka. Paling penting, kamu faham sepenuhnya erti POLIGAMI sebelum kamu menyalahkan kaum kami (wanita) tidak dapat menerima poligami.
Tiada masalah bagi kami untuk menerima segalanya dalam hidup mu sekiranya kau membimbing kami ke jalan yang benar. Kerana aku telah berjanji sanggup untuk menerima baik buruk masa silam mu dan masa depan mu.
Bie, semoga kau bahagia disamping isteri2 mu.

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Coooobaa-aaaaaaan!!

Salam Ramadhan kpd semua blogger yg beragama Islam. Raya dah nak dekat, so hows d preparation?? Laydee N, tgh busy giler dgn tempahan kek org... untuk diri sendiri, belum lagiii. Rasanyer tak beraya tahun ni. 1st day raya, lepas bersalam dengan nenek... cabuuuttt!!! Hahahahha... nak g facial, spa, check in hotel.... rehat sepuas2 hati. Raya ke 3, sambung balik projek.... katering for open house. Kek lagiii dan lagiiii.... pastuuuuu, im flying to Penang.
Jumpa bakal... Koononnn. Hmmm... ntah kenapa laa sy rase macam tak nak jer pergi. Tapi family asyik mnyucuk... sigh~~
Sebenarnye, memang takder alasan langsung sy taknak pergi. Part of me wanna say "I Do". Another half... tell me "Im not good enough". Haihh... normal laa... nervous kott. Tambahan, sejak sibuk dgn kuih raya ni, otak tak cukup oksigen. Tak leh nak berfungsi dgn baik. Dari subuh sampai tgh mlm... haaa.. contohnya, malam ni laa... skang ni pon tgh duduk depan oven. Bakar kek!! hebat tak hebat??! Almost 24h mengadap kek... mata pun.. tak yah cakap laa.
Si pendek berkata.. tunggu masa jer ni. Berbalik kepada topik "Cobaan" (Pendekar Bujang Lapok) kita pada mlm ni. Hehehe...
Memandangkan sy ni.. memang tak pandai sangat nak buat keputusan dalam kes2 yg macam ni. So.. sy "google" laa, untuk dapatkan cara penyelesaiannyer.... *mesti korang cakap "yer jerr ppuan ni google bende mcm ni" hahahahaa... well, actually.... memang sy google pon! Sy google, cari ape nama solat sunat tuu...
So last... sy jumpe...
"Solat Sunnat Istikharah
Solat ini dilakukan untuk mendapatkan petunjuk,
terutama bila seseorang dalam keraguan memutuskan
mana yang terbaik diantara dua perkara yang diragukan."
Lepas solat.. telefon sy pun berbunyi... aihh??? sape lak yg call jam 3 pagi??? "Si bakal" tu... memang tak mungkin. Jangankan jam 3am, siang hari... b'day sy langsung tak call tanye kabar, whatsapp sy... jauh skali die nak reply pada hari yg same. Mujur lerr, sy ni.. tak kisah pon. Lagi bagus. Tak pening kepala sy nak sibuk melekat dgn fon jer. Takder HASIL...heheehe...
Berbalik lagi kite ke cerita asal.. jadi sy pun jwb jer la call tu dgn mamai nyerr...
"Hello, sayang...." suara dlm si pemanggil!!
Sy terkejut... sy kenal sangat suara tu. Bru jer nak jawab..... "hye, darl.." sy terbangun dr tdo. YA ALLAH... Rupanyer sy tertdo lepas baca doa... tertdo atas sejadah.. bleh plak tak sedar?? Haiishh... pelik!! Kenape die??????? Sangat2 out of topic. Ade ker sy TER-ingat kat die mase solat??? Rasenyer... takder.  Sy cuma minta petunjuk samada sy ni... sebaiknyer hidup sorang atau perlukan sorang pembimbing?? Ape lak kaitan dgn die????? Adoii... makin pening. Ker... tu cuma mainan tdo jer??? Coobaaaaa aaannnnn!!! Dulu, ustazah ade bgtau, ade macam2 cara Allah swt bg petunjuk. Mungkin tu kire nyee... "si bakal" tu terpakse di reject kot???? Koott jer laa... takper. Jodoh pertemuan di tgn tuhan. Tu jer yg sy pegang. Taknak pening2. Kalau ditakdirkan hidup sorang pun, sy takder masalah. Alhamdulillah... skang ni pun murah rezeki. Segalanye lancar. Dlm tak sedar, min dah besar panjang. Memang panjang pon... kaki die, kalah kaki top model. Dah ler makin cantik... and... makin gedix!!! Alahai... penat melayan.
Haaa... dah siap pun kek sy ni. Masa untuk bersahur. Kan???? Genap 24j dahh ni... bila nak tdo. Nasib min takder. Die tdo rumah nenek. Aman sikit tdo sorang.. hehehehe.

Laydee_N:  in this life.. we only have 2 kind of LOVE..
                   "LOVE OF UR LIFE" OR "UR 1ST LOVE"....

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Help Me... Kill me!

I used to say.. Im not in the mood when I'm angry. But this time.. Its different, much different. I am as mad as Dr. Jean Grey / Phoenix in the X-men movie.
I need wolverine now before I destroy somebody into pieces. No words can explain this feeling, so..
The end of this entry.. Let the game begin!

Laydee_N : Ya Allah.. Forgive me for my past and upcoming sins. Help me... Please.

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Since when I care??

People keep on talking and looking at me..

Nothing I can do to shut their mouth

To block their eyes..

Why should I??

Since I'm going no where...

So what should I do?

Do what ever I want to laaa...

Why can't u give me space to breath

Sigh~

It's not like I'm bothering ur life..

So suck it up...

This is what happen to most of our neighbourhood... 

Too much free time, nothing to do...

So they look for something to make them "BUSY BODY"...

Go look after ur own life laa..

there's a lot of things u haven't discover

But... I'm ok anyway.. hehehhe

its a credit for me

Feels like I'm the celebrity... 

hahhahahhhah

thank you... thank you

for the attentions...

Guy Next Door...

Have u ever dated ur neighbour?

This is my 1st experience in life...

Dating the Guy In front of my apartment..

hahahhahah...

I think I need a tunnel...

or underground passage or something..

Yet.. its still a forbidden relationship!!

( - _ - )'

 Thinking of going some where...

Away from all this mess...

Or should I clean up the mess before going??

Like.. cleaning the house before go out for vacation...

Or I should clear up my mind first??

Then come back to get everything clear.

Result will be the same...

Its the way u want it to be done... 

I'm having trouble to make decision, lately.

Even its just a small matter...

 Now I understand, why women need somebody by her side...

Not only women... Everybody need one, I guess.

Having somebody to talk...

:(

Not over you..

Been a while, no skype.. No calls, no texting... Thought it will help me to get rid of H.I.M. But more like its killing me. I have to admit that.. Im irrevocably in love with H.I.M. So in love is not enough to explain my feeling. Seems like i cant love anybody else. I tried hard though..
What a dead end... Sigh~ Well, good thing is im numb. Maybe that explain why i dont have any feelings now. Like i can just sleep over any kind of pain. Even i got scolded like hell, i just give the "what ever" face. Lol!

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How to understand a women?

Hye.. Why its always an issue when come to this topic? What make it so hard to understand a women? Hmmm.. I'm having the same problem to understand my own species myself, what make u guys think u can?
Even if there's a book about this, they will name it "NEVER ENDING STORY". Got what I mean?
Well, the word "understanding" itself is already hard for some people to REALLY UNDERSTAND... See? How many "understand" in this entry? Now im confused!!
What i'm trying to say is, understand have to come with empathy. Doesnt matter whether men or women, just show some empathy.. U'll get along as the time goes.

***When people are in conflict, one person will interrupt the other and say "you need to understand that..." By saying "you need to understand" doesnt show empathy. Instead its usually a form of INVALIDATION!***

Laydee_N : if there's really a book about women, i dont think we can understand. Just another INVALIDATION in the world. ;p

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Happy Love Day 2012!!!

Hey... happy 2012 guys...
guys only ka??
hehehehe...
Ladies and gentlemen...
I give you my 2012 looks

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Lost few KGs in 2 weeks...

Can't remember when is my last post...
Miss me??

Hows ur Valentine Day??
Mine.. Nothing significant.
No date even I have a boyfriend
More like dunno dun care...
 What happen to me??
Still wondering...
Am I still have the have the human feeling?
Now I understand how love can hurt somebody so much...
Got everything damaged!!
and the last thing u feel is

NUMB!!

I find it stupid to try to love somebody else..
when I can't forget someone I still love..
and still deeply in love with H.I.M
I used to advise my frens to let go something that doesn't want to stay..
Now... it comes to me.
hunting me down...
Like I am so down right now!!

What I'm doing now??
Just effing my life, I guess
Naaaah...
I'm a single mom, trying to make things better for my lil' princess
A single lady, enjoying my life.

Work hard.. earn a lot of money.. and go to UK..
Stay with H.I.M spend the rest of my life
** ok thats just a crazy tot.. when I'm cracked!!**

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 hahahha... guys, beware!!!
She'll HUNT u and KILL u!!

Laydee_N  :  Single doesn't mean they are available....