Model TO BE...

Laydee_N : untuk Tontonan UMUM...

Sesi Berdialog dengan ???

Almost 4PM

jap lagi nak balik.....

yeay.. Packing barang dulu...

Kat SANE

now almost 8AM

hmmm... 

dah bangun ker blom ek?

Nak call tp...

malas ahh.. hari2 suara saya jer..

Boring la Mr. K!

Nak text die...

tttcchhh.. 

Buat sakit hati jer.. tak penah nak reply.

Baik aku text dengan baby Min..

??? 

Sibuk jer menyemak otak pikir pasal die..

Die buat ngok jer..

Busy sampai masa tdo pun tak cukup..

mana nak sempat berpikir benda remeh? 

Tau tak pe.. 

ape la... 

Teringat kat Mr. Kojex plak

Apa Khabar die ek?

Lama dah tak dengar berita...

errr.. memang tak minat dengar berita pun..

uhuk uhuk.. bukan....

cerita member2 chat..

hhhmmm... busy sejak produk endurance dah masuk news.

huhuhu...

he's waiting for the second baby...

ker dah kuar?

Rindu dengan baby Min...

rasa nak balik cepat..

Tiba2 lak rasa sedih..

naper ni??

Kesian baby MIN...

Laydee_N :

Uhuhukkkk.... baru buka nuff!!!!!!!!!

ADA dah BUFFERED EARNING!!!!!!

tapi tak byk...satu jer.. uhuk..uhuk..

Thx you all.. mmmmuuuaaahhh..muuuuaaahhh...

Balik dulu.. 

Malam g jenguk blog korang lg k?

Over Time...

Last nite I only can spend 15 min for blogwalking..

Cos I'm mother of two... 

but only for last nite!!

Emergency babysitter...

Being a "Mother Of Two" to baby Min and Baby Mai ----> Bini Kedek Blog's Daughter

I can say... Not easy

hehehehe.. make me feel like...

I don't want to have a second baby!!!

heee.. naaa kidding.

But....

Wait until baby Min 4 or 5 years old....

Cos now she still can't accept that she's a "SISTER"

Heee.. 

Now 6.30AM..

So Shiela (Bini Kedek) probably on her way to pick her baby now..

Baby Mai still sleeping.. 

What's In My head??

Colbie Caillat

Fallin' FOR you..

I don't know, but I think

I may be fallin' for you

Droppin' so quickly,

maybe I should keep this to myself

Wait until I know you better

I am tryin' not to tell you,

but I want to

I'm scared of what you'll say

So I'm hidin' what I'm feelin'

But I'm tired of holdin' this inside my 

I've been spendin' all my time

just thinkin' 'bout you

I don't know what to do,

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waitin' all my life,

and now I found you

I don't know what to do,

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

What is this? hehehe..

Ni la lagu yang 1st bermain di telinga ku untuk hari ni.. Pernah tak bangun pagi, celik mata terus rasa mcm dengar lagu? bukan dari radio or handphone or what so ever.. it's in your head. Sometime, lagu tu kita dengar dari tv, radio or apa2 yg bleh blagu.. then lagu tu melekat dalam otak spanjang hari. Mesti pernah kan?? That mean you are NORMAL.. ahahha.. 

What ever the song is.. it's a song that express your feeling... 

Maksudnya..

Kalau anda berasa sedih..

Sedih la lagu tu.

Kalau happy..

Happy la lagu tu..

and so on.. so on.

Tapi kekadang lagu yang mempengaruhi emosi harian kita. Tak mustahil. Uiisshh bla plak Laydee_N jadi Pakar Motivasi nih?? ahahha.. tu petikan dari artikel laa... saya kan rajin membaca, except for baca yang berunsurkan BERITA! Naper ek saya tak suke dengar, tengok & baca BERITA? hmm.. apa laa dosa BERITA tu pada kehidupan lepas saya? 

Ok thats all for now.. nak g BLOGWALKING lg nih.. 

Boring dok UMAH.. nak bergelak ketawa jap.. 

c ya later.. 

Agnes Monica - Teruskanlah

Pernahkah kau bicara

tapi tak didengar

tak dipandang sama sekali

Pernah kah kau tak salah

tapi disalahkan

tak diberi kesempatan

Ku hidup dengan siapa

Ku tak tau kau siapa

Kau kekasih ku tapi orang lain bagi ku

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan dunia mu saja

Teruskanlah.. teruskanlah 

kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diri ku

Aku patung bagi mu

Cinta bukan kebutuhan mu

Aku mau - once

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku

dan anggap ku tak ada

tapi takkan merubah perasaan ku kepada mu

Ku yakin pasti suatu saat

semua akan terjadi

Kau akan mencintai ku

dan takkan pernah melepas ku

Aku mau mendampingi diri mu

Aku mau cintai kekurangan mu

Selalu bersedia bahagiakan mu

Apa pun terjadi 

Ku janjikan aku ada

Kau boleh jauhi diriku

Namun aku percaya

Kau akan mencintai ku

dan takkan pernah melepas ku

Aku mau mendampingi diri mu

Aku mau cintai kekurangan mu

Aku yang rela terluka untuk masa lalu...

laydee_n : Sapa saja boleh jatuh cinta, tapi tak semua dapat terima kekurangan kita. Mungkin hanya untuk seketika, mereka mungkin akan berpaling setelah mereka jumpa yang lebih sempurna. 

Kita manusia yang sememangnya sentiasa hidup dalam kesilapan... Berdoalah agar kita diberi petunjuk oleh-Nya untuk berubah. Begitu juga buat orang disekeliling kita, percayalah yang mereka akan berubah suatu hari nanti dengan izin Allah s.w.t. 

Siapa kita untuk menentukan sesuatu yang kita sendiri tidak pasti? Sesungguhnya kita semua adalah hamba Allah s.w.t, tiada lebih tiada yang kurang... Beza kita hanya pada amal masing2. 

Cermin lah diri kita sendiri dan elakkan dari menuduh orang yang bukan2.. kerana kita sendiri tidak tahu apa yang sebenarnya berlaku. 

Nasihat buat semua pasangan:

Give and take, Respect each other AND try to find a way to achieve a BETTER COMMUNICATION. 

LOVE need NO reason

Ask yourself...

Why you love somebody?

He / She ---> handsome / cute / pretty / beautiful / sexy and so on.. so on..

Heee.. Biasa la.. Memang rata2 tengok rupa paras dulu. Hahahaha.. No komen!

Okay... 

What if...

Semua tu ditarik balik?

Apa2 boleh jadi... so how?

Do you still LOVE him / her?

If you LOVE him / her..

Bcos of ---> good /  understanding / loving / caring and what so ever..

People can change...

Hmmm... Susahkan??

When you love somebody.. 

Try to ask yourself "why"..

Do we really need a reason??

Kita tidak perlukan SEBAB untuk bercinta..

Yang penting..

NAWAITU kene betul!!

Laydee_N : True LOVE is when you can't find A REASON to love them. 

Happy or Sad Valentine???!!

HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL!!!! Though I'm single now.... But I still got my daughter to cheer up my days! Heee... She's so adorable. When ever I feel wanna cry, her sweet little cute notty face can wash away all those pain. Amazing.. how a little girl can do it so well. Ermm... talking bout AMAZING, it's all God's will. Anyway, I'm happy.. happy with my daughter, my life and my "DREAMS". Heee..

Yesterday, I watched this Hindustan movie that make me cried for almost 3 hours! --> UMROU JAAN<-- Aishwariya Rai as Amiran / Umrou Jaan. This movie is about a little girl named Amiran, she's abducted and sold to brothel. Since then she's called Umrou Jaan. 

Then, she grow up as a dancer. Met a Sultan.. Young and handsome one. Heee.. They falling in love but cos of her "TITLE"... Everything fall apart. 

Then, she went back to her home town where she's born. Sad.. Cos she didn't get the chance to met her father. He died after he heard about Amiran (Umrou). But she manage to meet her mother and her brother. Once again.. She thought that she can END the dark side of her, none of her hopes goes her way. Her only family insulted her as she's a very "famous" prostitute. Well, they never know the true story. Anyway, they seem refuse to know the truth. Truth hurts!! She was only a little girl when she got abducted! She didn't simply slept with any guys. The only guy she ever slept with is Sultan Nawab the love of her life.. and she had been raped several time. Cruel isn't it?? Everybody cursing her because of her "TITLE"... Yet she still can move on with her life and her "TITLE" remain forever. 

This story telling us how important for us to prepare a defence wall for ourself. Sometime, we can't just rely on others (even our love one), some of them only can defend half way... maybe 1 in the million can stand till end. Just let people say what they wanna say, God know everything. Humans don't deserve to do the punishment. 

We all just the same, looking for something or somebody who can bring us happiness. But in the same time, try to make yourself happy. Life's not that cruel.. We created our own life, we ourself made all the decisions so nothing to hesitate and don't blame life. Try to make believe that there's always a good thing will happen. My darl told me so. Be happy always.. that's the only way you can find the ray of life. 

I'm Alive!!!!

Ok... This is for -->my frens.. tiger and pooh.. we always there for each other! *sempat berlagu la plak...* To my family --> mummy, sis and also mama (udak). My friends... Thanks for helping me to find my way and finally come out with a decision... hehehe.. took forever to make one. 

I choose to stand where I am now and keep on moving without a turning back and no regret! Am I happy wif my life now? I don't have an exact answer for that. This is my philosophy, once I've make a decision.. so prepare to live with it. Now I'm at d starting point... Which I didn't realize I've wasted so much time standing here without doing nothing!!! Now.. I'm ready to go. 

>>Every Decision Comes With Consequences<< So I'm ready to face what ever in front of me. 

To ila, bye. Tinggal la kitak sorang2 d Bintulu k? hahaha.. Where I'm going? hehehe.. Heading to the future of cos... hehehe, but not now! Sempat kamek nangga baby Mai membesar sbg Johan! 

Ingat sik apa yang kta chat mlm td? haaa.... hehehe.. hahahaha... aih.. tetak indah tek. Well, kmk rasa it's time to try something "NEW". New year tek nak? hehehehe... 

What if it's only a hope that never come true? Sometime hopes make us happy. Sometime it come wif pain. My fren, Mr. retarded heart told me that "pain" make us feel alive. I'll be fine, Min kan ada? So if I wait forever but he still don't show up then that's the risk I have to live with. At least I got a target.. It's hard to make a move when you don't know where to go. But I'm not expecting anything from him, kalau jadi... jadi la. Tinggal la ktk sorang2 d bintulu k? Kan dah ada baby Mai? hehehe.. Mesti sik sunyi walaupun sikda kmk klak. *Mcm benar2 jak bunyi nak pergi jauh* hahaha.. Amin jak la. Kata2 kan satu DOA?! haaa... Banyak2 la berkata tentang perkara yang baik! Cakap la.. baby Mai cute.. baby Mai gud gurl.. mesti nya bait klak. Jangan mcm Min! Ehhh.. Min baiiiiiit apaaa.... hahahaha *cover line*... if this just a dream, then I'll make it the sweetest one. If it never come true, then I'll make it the unforgotten. Boh cakap kmk ANGAU.. bukan Angau la!! Bangau tok! 

To erm.. Mr retarded heart, Thx a lotttttssssssssssssss for your "motivation course". I will keep everything in mind *thx cos its free.... K will be just fine with or without me. He's a very very da bz men as you know. Hhmmm... so if kmk sikda pun sikpa laa kali?! kali..? huh~ sik kan mati K ya. Sik lalu makan? eeiiiihhh sik mungkin... K sentiasa busy, free time pun tlalu lalu laa limited! K ada free time ka? Rasanya free time nya = time tido nya laa kan? Heee.. When its come to K, all I do is GRUMBLE... GRUMBLE...and GRUMBLE! Waaahhh.. baru la kmk perasan. Mesti K tension giler!! ahahahaha... dari dolok nya jak jd mangsa buli. huhuhu.. 


Okay, Conclusion! ____________ here I come!!! hahahaha.. Fill in the blank with your own word. Dah sebulan berlalu.. and its FEBRUARY 2010!!! Waaaa... I just noticed that I haven't set any resolution for this year! hahahaha... as if I've done it before. Not even once.. *patut la kmk suka main terjun jak.. terjunan arjuna* So how bout this year? Hee... apa best owh? 


1. Kurangkan menangis!!! 
2. Elakkan dari perkara2 yang akan mendatangkan tangisan!! 

3. Bina benteng kat kelopak bawah mata, So air mata tak dapat mengalir!!


heheheehe... Maksudnya, "STAY ON THE SIDE WALK, PLAY ON THE SAFE SIDE" so Min won't get hurt...  hehehe.. btol la. Budak2 mesti la kuat main!! Mok lebih berjaga2. ME?! Time will heal... dah besar panjang. Sik kan luka sikit pun nak nangis. Tahan jak laa... 
So.. is this the best for me? What ever it is.. right or wrong, let it be. Learn Not Run from the mistake. 
Berkarat la aku pastok!!!! ahaaha.. ZZZZzzzzZZZZZ... Nite, Sweet Dream!

*To ♥ is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

Geeerrraammmm.....

Boleh sampai sini saya nak lepas geram. Isshh... memang sah tahap geram yang melampau. Pagi tadi.. as usual, *as usual ker? mane la usual nya... bunyi macam hari2 jer. No.. no.. Not as usual. Hurrmm... as ape2 jer laa.. Ok, ni cerita pasal orang yang saya geram sangat!!

Namanya... urrmm.. biar lah rahsia. ahahaha.. Rasa mcm Dato' siti n Dato' K lak.. tp memang la nama dia mula dr K pun... Erm.. panggil Dato' K Mr. Mrs. K jer la.. cos HIS hair so long.. kalau tengok dari belakang, confirm fikir dia tu ppuan. *konon rambut tu la yang buat dia nampak muda remaja. chet... tak sedar diri!! ek napa marah2 ni? uisshh... emo nya aku?!

Perlu ke nak cerita ni, tapi memandangkan tahap ke"GERAM"an saya yang terlalu la tinggi... angin sebadan dkejanya. Kes die nak tido.. tapi saya masih nak bermanja2 chatting.. chat kita orang baru 2 3 line jer, die dah nak tdo!!!!!!! Lame dah tak chat, kebetulan ade benda nak bagi tau.. tapi....... dah malas la nak buka topik tu lagi. Takde mood dah... Mood dah lari ke laut. ehhh... Laut rendah sangat, lari ke langit!! (kira nak bagi tau tahap yang tinggi sesangat la nih). Dia pun satu gak, percaya gak cakap saya. I told him no need to sleep but it's not like I really mean it! Haizz.. Tu la, Bendul sangat. Tau la saya suka membuli tapi takde la saya ni kejam sgt. Ape daaa..... Doesn't matter anyway.. dulu2 best jer chat dengan die. Masalah besar mane pun boleh lupa kjp.. kjp jer la.. Well... people does changed. HHmmm... akibat geram yang tak leh nak dikawal, saya pun men"delete" no contact nya... huhuhu... Rasa bersalah la plak dah delete contact no. dia. Nak save balik.. dah tak ingat no. hahahah... Takpe laa. Biar jelaa.... Rindu lak dengan kawan sorang lagi, Kojex. Tapi.. ade lagi tapi nye. Tak pe la... Semua tengah sibuk... tak macam saya.. Lady Boss!! Turun keje ikut sukahati kaki... sampai ofis kol 10am pun boleh lagi bagi muka tak bersalah kat boss. Kalau dah boring2, g mall sebelah... lepak kat kiosk member. Rasa2 malas nak masuk ofis petang, balik rumah! Dah... 

Haa.. ada lagi yang buat saya geram ni. Baru saja tengah chat dengan Mr. Kojex -> that name no longer available.. Mr. KEDE kut!!! hahaha... padan muka. Jaga baik2 title tu weeiii... Makasih jer la!! Saya dah banyak sangat title ni.. tak larat dah nak masukkan title yang satu tu. Awak jaga and simpan baik2 k? 

Hmmmm... untuk meredakan keadaan, saya teringat kat plan saya nak g KL with my fren and maybe my auntie too.... plan time puasa nanti, shopping raya. Huhuhu... harap-harap jadi la plan saya ni. Tengah2 check email, mcm biasa laa ada email dr MAS ni menyemak dalam inbox. Iklan.. yang menyakitkan hati. *Napa laa hari ni ek..? semua la tak kene.. *maybe faktor "dtg kwn" kot.. haizz... kesian la sapa2 yang chat dengan saya hari ni. Semua kene tempias.. yang paling malang Mrs. K. hahaha.. cos his the 1st person on9 this morning. Back to the advertisement--> 

Heed the call of vibrant London!

from MYR 1499

All-inclusive fares • Book Now • Travel from 1 May-30 Sep 2010 

wahhh... time2 aku marah dengan orang london (MRS. K) ni.. ade lak binatang ni datang menduga kemarahan ku. Tau ape saya buat pas baca email ni? Book terus tiket g London.. Terminate my MAS acc.. tapi tak tau mcm mane.. huhu.. so I just "report Spam" je la.. isshhh.. terok gak effect "dtg kwn" saya kali ni. ~(?#?)~

So kesimpulan utk hari ni... I hate my "recent activities" for today!! Sorry... kepada sapa2 yang berkenaan..

*MRs. K

*MR. KEDE kut

*Encik Amir Din.. -> selamat bertunang!! (ESOK)

*Zack A.. Sorryy tak kene layan cos takut kene tempias.

*my bro... 

n so on so on...  uishhh byk gak eh? huhuhu..